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argh......

Sun, 27 Dec 2009 19:26:26 GMT

i want to put all my jack ass bosses i've had through all my jobs that i've held.. put them in one room and let them make each other go crazy... that would be worthy YouTube content if you ask me... hmmm..... hah... sadistic i tell you...

insane

Sat, 26 Dec 2009 03:50:18 GMT

im just a little devastated right now... i had an awesome brain storm yesterday evening.. typing away furiously on xanga... and when i finished i copied the damn thing in case it refreshed and cleared and in spite of doing that while i was finally posting it.. it somehow cleared what i was writing and didnt paste when i tried to paste what i was meaning to post... it has left me completely frustrated.. losing my piece of thought... my whole huge brainstorm cleared... thought i would remember enough of it to rewrite it and piece it back together.. but it just isnt the same... i hate that i was inspired like this after a long time to write something meaningful and it couldn't save.. i could feel the power of it... and its just gone now.. sigh.... it started something about how life is so amazing and insane when we come across a spark in our life... a single second that suddenly sparks into a crazy thought.. a sudden realization that we have after so many years of living life.. existing.. and after so many years something dawns on us that we never noticed before... and its funny that we never noticed it before considering its been there all along... it went on to explain how thought provoking it would be not to just experience a single spark once in a blue moon but a continuous flow of sparks... and how the few rare people that are able to experience such a thing are termed insane because other people cannot begin to grasp the idea of such a thing. i also felt that life and how we experience it is a like being in a parachute way high up in the sky that's coming down... and as we come down we land on these plateaus.. we land on them and learn what we can.. plateaus of learning and growth and evolving.. we take what we can from the plateau.. and use it to prepare ourselves for the next plateau.. which can come unexpectedly.. we don't know when we will arrive at the next plateau.. how soon or how long it will take.. what experiences we can take from it.. but it's up to us to take what's put out there.. and if its not put out there then to find what we need to.. and scope out the learning experience. sometimes we land gracefully on each plateau.. sometimes its rough.. sometimes its stressful painful.. exhausting... i think it has to do something with how open we are to treating our life as a learning experience and advancing to the next level.. there are certain people who try and take what they can from it.. it shocks me how some people spend their whole lives monotonously through the same routine day in day out and don't bother to take something from it.. or find the sparks..or bother doing anything with the sparks that they find.. i think others are capable of doing more with their lives but dont.. and it saddens me... i think im in between.. i find the sparks and i act upon them when i can but i could be doing much more... this is all i can manage to remember at the moment... it is so annoying that i can't write the post originally as i had written it.. it's like just not the same... maybe it's for the best... maybe it wasn't meant to be shared.. because it was solely meant for my own understanding.. another plateau maybe.. who knows.. all i know is im not gonna expect every landing to be the best.. but its definitely not going to be my worst.. and im going to enjoy life be happy and take what it gives me... im not going to sit back and just let life happen to me.. I'M GOING TO HAPPEN TO LIFE... hope to share another spark.. another plateau experience in the near future... this light is turned off..

How do you get into the holiday spirit without spending money?

Thu, 24 Dec 2009 17:41:29 GMT

You can bake christmas cookies.. yummm... gingerbread cookies, sugar cookies in christmas shapes, cinnamon sugar cookies, you can also try a gingerbread house if you really enjoy being in the kitchen..

make ornaments at home with a little glue, card board, ribbon, construction paper paint, glitter and colored pencils... It's fun to find little odds and ends around the house and turn them into something special to hang on the christmas tree.

read christmas stories... it's more fun if you have younger brothers and sisters, or even nieces and nephews to read to... theyre always looking for someone to read to them even if they do know how to read. It's fun animating a story and telling it out loud.. Makes it exciting and adventurous... and gets anyone around into the christmas spirit...

you can go to a soup kitchen and feed the hungry.. The needy really enjoy the attention and the organizations really need the help so you're serving both purposes.. There are also charities you can get involved with that help underprivileged kids get some toys that they wished for on Christmas day. The joy of giving will always get you in the holiday spirit.

Put a log in the fireplace and heat up some apple cider... the warm rich cinnamony taste of cider in your belly will hit the spot!

curl up in front of the tv with your family and watch some nice christmas movies
My personal favorites include: How The Grinch The Stole Christmas, Elf, Santa Buddies, Curious George A Very Monkey Christmas, It's A Very Muppet Christmas Movie, The Nutcracker (It's a ballet that they show on tv quite a lot, I don't feel like it's Christmas without hearing the tune of Dance Of The Sugar Plum Fairies at least once!)

Go outside and build a snow man or a snow fort... go sledding... make some snow angels... playing in the snow gives you the hunger to come back and have some christmas cookies and some hot cocoa..

help put up the christmas lights...

put on some christmas music..keep in mind.. christmas music is especially fun to listen to while doing any of the other activities mentioned so far... (except for while watching a movie, duh!)

that's all i can think of for now... this should get u started... this light is turned off..

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nothing stellar.. just ordinary...

Sun, 20 Dec 2009 11:56:21 GMT

this light is turned off...

finally did it... and it feels so rejuvenating...

Tue, 15 Dec 2009 08:22:06 GMT

i got rid of my facebook account and it feels so goodddd... ive been wanting to that for a while now... i think we get so caught up in how many friends we have and it gives reason for people to stalk people to see what everyones up to... im just so sick of the whole idea... i dont want my life like an open book for everyone to see and speculate... its just a gossip feed and im tired of the whole circus... so i pulled up my socks and got rid of my facebook account. yay for me.... this light is turned off...

Friday, November 20, 2009

Fri, 20 Nov 2009 11:25:38 GMT

So, my company got a partnership with a really good company website because I featured them in one of my article and they liked the publicity we gave them on our blog. It was nice to see my boss happy about my articles.. It seems for some reason or the other my blogs are gaining interest and fan followings.. I'm pretty excited about it and I enjoy writing about Internet marketing as my job... I would love to include my article here for all to read but that would give away my identity unfortunately...and I can't have that happen because I depend on this blog to be anonymous...it's easier to write openly then... I've delved into the reasons why I keep this blog anonymous in past posts so I won't bore you with the whole explanation again... but im pretty happy about getting recognition for the work i do...

I'm honestly super pissed at my sister right now... She's so selfish... Honestly I think as a family member we unconsciously push the weaknesses and negative habits of our relatives to deal with them easier... kind of look the other way... but this time I'm like pissed because I can't look the other way... I will not do that because it involves the fact that for the past 4 years whenever my dad has come down and my sister has wanted ANYTHING from india, whether its the countless bottles of different hair oils, or jewelery, or makeup or anything, I will be running all over town to get it... India is not organized with easy traffic rules and is no way considered a breeze through the park... I will drive through the polluted streets sometimes an hour away, under the hot boiling sun, battle corrupt cops find a parking spot, haggle with the shop owner and do whatever I need to do so I can send the stuff she needs back to her... Now this time around I asked her to help my mom pick out a nice pair of jeans because my mom won't know to pick out for me. I sent my sister some snap shot pics off Froogle and told her my size so my mom could bring me some nice jeans... and she doesn't HAVE THE TIME TO BUY ME ONE PAIR OF JEANS... CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT SHIT... ugh... little sisters are brats i tell you.. i reallyyyy feel like shaking her awake sometimes and telling her to get your head out of your own ass!!!!

I was a little sick the past couple of days... had a little fever and stuff... I think the weather is acting as obnoxious as my sister these days... lol... The weather here has been acting soooooo weird lately. It rained the beginning of november... im not talking bout a sprinklee... im talking about a monsoon downpour in the middle of winter... rained for almost 48 hrs straight.... so many trees fell... my windows started leaking water... I used up every single towel in my house so that the water wouldn't reach everywhere and ruin the beds (i have a divan bed so my beds are on the floor) Then it started warming up and the rain stopped what seemed like after forever.... and then after a gap of 3 days.. It rained AGAINNNN for 3 days straight. This time it wasnt so steady... it was a lighter rain but still monsoon types... it was absolutely insane.. The weather here in winter gets pretty chilly even without the rain. THEN... after it stopped raining a couple days later there was an EARTHQUAKE TREMOR. I swear to you I'm not making this up!!!! My friend R also felt it across town... And it happened for a good 4-5 seconds!!!!! I thought maybe I was daydreaming but I heard my windows rattle and the whole building was moving and my chair was moving. It was mind blowing... First time I ever felt anything like that!!! I think all this crazy weather is due to global warming...

Day before yesterday I was finally able to step out and I went to check on my aunt to see how she was recovering from her hysterectomy at home... she was released from the hospital on monday i didn't get to check on her after that because I was pretty ill... But when I went on wednesday I found out from her maid that she had been readmitted because she was super weak and wasnt keeping any food in her stomach... Then I got kind of worried and felt bad that I had not met her in some time... so yesterday I went and spent the afternoon and evening with her in the hospital.. She was feeling better after some saline and some injections to control the vomiting and the doctor has told her to eat simple things like varan bhath (rice and dal) and two bites of fruit like a banana or an orange because her stomach cannot handle anything more. Doctor has also told her to take bed rest and take it easy for at least the next 4-5 months so my kerala trip in december is definitely cancelled. I'm honestly not that bothered as long as I get to spend time with my parents.. She's able to walk around now but very gingerly she said her stitches still hurt a little. I helped them load the car and packed her in the car since they discharged her yesterday in the evening. I think she is going to have her stitches removed on monday... so let's see... I hope she feels better soon.. Anyways this is enough for now I think... 5 more days till my parents are here!!!!! This light is turned off...

checking in...

Sat, 14 Nov 2009 22:54:56 GMT

so yeah im checking in after not too long of a gap... im trying to be regular with my blog... it leads to healthy venting if you ask me... im really excited... because november's half done... year is almost at an end... parents coming down to visit in a couple weeks... the days are flying by till march is almost here... its pretty exciting... my aunt it turns out is not dealing with cancer... so far its only a cyst that theyve discovered and removed during her hysterectomy. she was in a lot of pain earlier but i guess she will be home by monday... looking forward to seeing her back on her feet again... and glad to find out it wasnt cancer after all... moms gonna be coming down in a matter of days and she's bringing my ps3 with her which is pretty damn exciting... and also new jeans, new corduroy flare pants, and um while she's here she's going to be buying me a new otg. (Oven Toaster Grill.)

I'm pretty excited about that... I'll be able to roast, bake, toast and barbecue whatever my lil heart desires... with my gojira coming in march with a couple of steaks and stuff it will come into good use cooking up meals for him... yay... ok im super tired... so im gonna go... but thats it for now.. sigh... blah... this light is turned off...

fear of doctors..

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 12:16:18 GMT

I'm feeling so low today... Tomorrow I have to go with my aunt who is getting a curretine done. A curretine is a surgical procedure where a female patient is given anesthetic and the lining of her uterus is scraped. My aunt is almost touching 70 yrs old.. I think it's the Indian mentality and her generation that is scared of doctors that has gotten her into this mess.. They don't like seeing doctors... They don't believe in checkups... They stay away from hospitals unless its absolutely necessary.. Apparently she went for a checkup finally and she had been keeping mum about the fact that she was spotting for over a year... She finally told the doctor but the doctor feels she's actually probably spotted for somewhere close to 3 or 4 years. This is not a good symptom to have for a woman above 60... and then to suffer from it for a couple of years is just horrifying to think about... Spotting is usually a sign of a cyst.. My cousin's friend who's above 40 recently suffered from spotting and had to get a hysterectomy to get her uterus removed.. To think my aunt has been quietly sitting on this condition for years just blows my mind..

She's so used to keeping quiet and suffering whatever befalls her... she's conditioned herself to do that and so now she's actually probably sealed her fate... If its cancerous it could have spread quite a bit... If she had spoken earlier there are so many procedures that can remove the cancer and give her more healthy years of her life... I don't know what to think at this moment... 2 out of the 3 doctors have said its most probably malignant. Only after the curretine is done and sent to be analysed will they find out if its malignant or not. I told my mom about it who's a breast cancer survivor. She said the symptoms don't sound good and she's probably got 3 to 6 months to live... I don't want to think negative but its sad and scary to think about what can happen if we ignore our health or what our body is trying to tell us when there's something wrong.. I'm just praying she doesn't suffer and we have good news... some miracle... My aunt is not a happy person... I've noticed it for some years now... she's the type of person who forces herself to step out of the house to get the weekly groceries... but she hates it... she hates stepping out of the house... she has not enthusiasm left for life... everything is stressful... always in a cranky uptight mood... always tired.... its really sad that she's not enjoying life... i feel bad for her actually... This is the woman who took care of me my first year I was born... Like a mother... My parents adopted me from Mumbai when I was 10 days old and according to legalities they couldn't take me to the US until a year had passed... My parents had jobs to get back to so they left me in the care of my aunt... At the time my cousin was in college and she used to play with me and creep into my room and watch me sleep in my crib, and take me for walks in my pram... I think this is the reason I am so close to my cousin... After a year went by my parents came to take me... my cousin told me last year that when they took me she was so used to caring for me and loving me as a baby that she literally had a nervous breakdown after I went to the US... She cares about me a lot I guess even though she doesn't show her love...Even my cousin has told me that my aunt (her mom) has never shown love in the ways that are expected... She's never given kisses or hugs like other moms, or been affectionate as such... She's uncomfortable getting touchy feely... But I know she does love even though she doesn't show it.. my cousin agrees with me that she shows her love to all of us through her food.. she is a great cook... and loves cooking for family... I just hope that everything turns out ok... sigh... this light is turned off..

halloweeeeeeeeennn.....

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 22:17:35 GMT

Well I always feel bummed out not being in the US when it's Halloween. I love cold apple cider (yes cold I don't like heated up) and I love watching the leaves turn red and orange and then fall off the trees... I love how it starts getting chilly... the kind that's too cold for just a shirt but too hot for a sweater... and you start seeing your breath in little clouds that quickly disappear as fast as they appeared.. carving pumpkins and roasting the seeds in the oven... putting a log on the fire and watching Halloween specials on TV... (this is east coast weather I'm talking about if you haven't realized already.) Halloween is usually the last major holiday western new yorkers get to celebrate before the onset of snow... sometimes it snows on Halloween! But when it finally snows we don't see the ground again until sometime in march or april so its a pretty big deal. I remember trick or treating as a kid, the thrill of going door to door till your pillowcase is dragging on the ground full of candy and your fingers are numb and ready to fall off from the cold... Then we'd go home and as the blood rushes back to our cheeks in rosy blushes we'd count our candy and organize it from favorite to least favorite... and convince our friends to trade for the prized candies we wanted more of... Then of course our parents would interrupt to check and make sure all our candy was safe to eat and unopened and then we'd continue our bartering and trading until our parents told us to get to bed... those were the good old days... haha... we'd always grumble when people gave us pennies, or tootsie rolls, no name un branded candy or hmmm bible booklets... lol.... but we'd be super happy and be overflowing with gratitude when some houses had the king sized candy bars and the good stuff to give out.. yeah, i'm talking bout the big guns.... mounds, twix, reese's peanut butter cups, snickers, mallowcups, m&m's and mars bars... The best part is when the halloween evening is wrapping to an end and people don't want any leftovers and they just give it out by the handfuls... that's when you've really hit the Halloween lottery.. haha... Let's see during my halloween days I have been a skeleton, a cat, a cheerleader, scary spice (that was fun, my friends and I dressed up as the spice girls) and I think that's it... that's all I can remember..... Of course if I was in the US right now Id be too old for trick or treating but of course I'd make sure to have or go to a Halloween party or dress up to hand out candy to people who ring my doorbell! Anyways these are some costume ideas I would have gone with if I was there right now... I thought these were fun... Most of these pictures I got are from online costume websites. But I think half the fun is coming up with a costume you can put together yourself instead of buying it already put together. not to mention how expensive it is..

bumblebee.... cute right? talk about queen bee :P

french maid... dusting anyone? lol :P this reminds me of those who dunnit murder scenarios like clue junior... it would be fun to dress up as a french maid and have my guy dress up as hmmm... sherlock holmes? (couple costumes are so much funnnnn!!)

1920's flapper girl...

boxer... yeah tough love...

geisha girl... love the idea of a kimono...

genie...

marilyn monroe.. sexy and flirty... (my guy could dress up as a baseball player and be joe dimaggio!!)

nurse... hahaha this nurse would be fun.. and reminds me of the nurse on that blink 182 album... my bf could dress up as one of the blink 182 singers... and considering they went buck naked on this album's music video... he wont have much of a costume to deal with... lolll.... (he'd flip if i asked him to do something like that :P)

playboy bunny... my bf could be hugh hefner... nice silky bathrobe, slippers and a cigar.. and he's good to go ;)

police officer... my bf could be my prisoner... lol...

sailor outfit.. cute right??

even an old fashioned costume like a witch could be fun to dress up in...

I don't know why I'm infatuated with couple costumes... I guess I've never gotten the chance to dress up as a couple and I think that would be so cooll... hmmm.... This was so adorable... I showed this to my bf even he thought it was cool :P check it out below.. its like so dorky cute...hehe

My bf and I thought that if we were ever in the US during Halloween it would be fun if he dressed up as a pimp (Kat Williams style) and I could dress up as his hooker <3 true silly love i tell ya... hahaha. Now this couple's costume I thought rocked the house... it's so unique and creative... this is what Halloween is truly about...

Get it? Fire Fox! Yeah I knew you'd think it was pretty cool too.... Anyways... I'm done i guess.. Happy Halloween everyone!! Be safe!!! Hope you had fun reading... What do you plan to dress up as, or what would you dress up as if you could celebrate Halloween? This light is turned off...

diwali celebrations...

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 15:53:02 GMT

well i was so busy celebrating Diwali and finishing up end of the month work that I didn't get a chance to write much lately.... a very annoying feeling when all you want is peace and quiet and the chance to write down whatever you want. I had two events I went to for Diwali. Honestly if it was up to me I'd like to be at home watching tv and ordering in chinese or something. I was not really in the family festive mood especially with all this family shit going on. The good news is after I secretly emailed my dad and told him everything that was going on he managed to convince my uncle to come visit him to get away from all the drama. My uncle's been pretty depressed and sad and crying about his oldest daughter (my cousin) whos decided to seperate from her husband. I just found out the other day one of the reasons thats influencing her to make this decision and its something that I can't even dare to write down here in case someone figures out my identity... but anywho it just sucks cuz you look at your family members, specially the ones older to you, you look up to them, inspire to do good things because of them and respect them and when ur finally an adult yourself you find out how morally wrong they act... its kind of a sad feeling...

so yeah now u can get the gist why i wasnt feeling all "diwali-ish" (for the sake of a better word) But then I really didnt have a choice. My one friend R was pretty alone on Diwali and wanted me to come celebrate with her so I couldnt back down. And then I had a family dinner which I would be slaughtered if I said I didnt want to go for that. and with my cousin and her slipped disc I had to help her out and be there for her.
Diwali day was when I went to R's place. I had a lot of work to do before going there so I ended up going evening time. We made rangoli on the front step and lit diyas. that part was fun. I had actually not done rangoli in years and last I remember I sucked at it, so it was nice to see I had a decent hang of it when I tried after so long. It turned out pretty cool if I say so myself. Here's the pic of our rangolis. R's are on the 2 sides and mine is the rectangle design in the middle.

After R did pooja we went over to their friends house to have dinner. Hot puris and cholay. omg it was heavenly.. really good. Then after dinner we did the traditional thing most people do on Diwali which is play cards. You're actually supposed to gamble but I wasn't comfortable gambling on a game I wasn't really well acquainted with. We played a game called judgement and it turned out to be a lot of fun. The funniest thing was that the host G taught me the rules and how to play and he got 5 points at the end of all the rounds coming in last place whereas I got 85 points, coming in 3rd place. He couldn't understand how I could do so well playing this game for the first time. it was funny. lol.. I knew the next day I would suffer if I didnt sleep. It was around 4am by then and I had the family diwali dinner to attend so I decided to catch some shut eye. It was I think the most uncomfortable sleep I had. Maybe it's the idea of sleeping in someone else's bed. I had come to their house the first time and they were really sweet and nice but still I would have rather slept in my own bed. hmmm

I was not talking to R's boyfriend the whole time because we got into an argument earlier. I think he's seriously retarded. I just don't understand how can be so insensitive and rude. I've been telling him the last couple of times that I've visited him and R that I don't like it when he brings up my ex. It's been 6 months since I've broken up with him but he'll always tell me how he bumped into him or saw him or will tell me to stop pretending that I don't miss him. First couple of times I talked to him bout it I explained to him politely and calmly that I really find it annoying and hurtful when he does that and to please stop. This time I lost it and I started arguing with him. He honestly kept that bad vibe going between and him the whole time I spent diwali with him and R and that's when I decided enough is enough. So a couple days ago I emailed him and told him how I don't want him in my life anymore because he can't understand what I tell him. It honestly is quite bugging because I don't look on my ex as one of the best times of my life. I look on it as one of the worser times of my life. I felt dead back then. Broken is when it still hurts. Dead is when you're beyond broken that you stop feeling the pain and u stop living.. You just submit to whatever befalls you. stop caring. stop feeling... But now I'm with someone who took all that out of my life. detoxified me and made me feel real and loved again. So you can understand why I feel so upset when someone brings up my ex and they won't let it go... I hate it when people are stuck in the past. Its nice when you walk down memory lane. but cmon u cant live in memory lane!! hmmmm...

I had actually driven away this special person in my life and really hurt them by doing so it was a couple years ago and now I've finally got them back in my life again by some miracle and I feel perfect for the first time in my life. As all of you are living your lives I'm sure you must be knowing how difficult it is to feel perfect. It's a very rare moment that you feel perfect. But I do. because of this person... And if everything works out we will get engaged soon.. he makes my life so different so real... so happy. and I could never let go of that again. I would be stupid to...

Anyways moving on.... in the morning I woke up and the whole diwali party went to Koregaon park to eat breakfast at german bakery. was so yummy. I was literally a zombie cuz I had a headache from lack of sleep and was still tired. I liked their eggs way better than Voheman's cafe or however u spell it. That's where they usually end up for breakfast and I just hate the bitter cheese they use.

I was a little vigilant cuz my bf told me his ex is always hanging out there and apparently she's the kind to pick a fight and get all bitch momma on me. Then i realized i was just being silly cuz she doesnt know what I look like. loll.. hmmm.. I'm honestly not the kind to pick a fight. but I can stand my ground if I have to. lol..

Then after breakfast at german bakery, I went back to kondhwa with R and her bf and had a bath. After a bath, R promised me she would straighten my hair cuz none of the parlors are open on sunday. So she straightened it and it looked realllly really awesome and then I went all the way back to my cousin's house and crashed there till it was time to get up and help set up the family Diwali dinner. I wore a pretty salwar kameez which was turquoise and made me look super slim...

and it looked awesome with my straight hair... and then people start oozing in... lol... yeah indian standard time they always come in late.. oozzing. lol... hmmmm... my cousin and i had an interesting time dealing with the couple of black sheep in our family... was pretty interesting... you know wut im talking bout those members in your family that gossip and try to make ur life as miserable as possible. lol... A lot of people performed for this dinner. my nephew performed "The Unforgiven" by Metallica on his bass guitar. It was his first performance on stage and hes 12 so it was super super amazing... I was so proud of him. Then some other relatives sang with synthesizer and guitar some Munkees (sp?) songs, others played the harmonica, my neice played piano, even I had the balls towards the ends to play something. It was really fun.. I think the Munkees songs they played were really good I'm considering downloading a few songs to see how they are. They reminded me a little of the Beatles.

The dinner was really good too. There was chicken biryani which was sinfully yummy and I also had jalebis. Jalebis are traditionally eaten hot with cold milk. But I like them hot with vanilla icecream!! You should try it out if you get the chance. But yeah the biryani and the jalebis, those were basically the two things that filled my plate. lol... Then a couple of cousins decided to go for coffee at midnight to this cafe nearby. It was fun... My niece and I had hot chocolate. Then we came back home and talked till 4 in the morning.

She was telling me how her ex bff stayed over the other night. and when she did she asked her how life was. Her bff answered "These days I'm really horny." Can you imagine a 14 yr old girl answering that. My niece was so disgusted and shocked. She stopped hanging out with her bff after she started making fun of her for no reason, smoking, drinking and doing drugs..Apparently she's bulimic too because she wants to be thin. I guess sex is next on this little girl's agenda which is pretty sad. Both my niece and I agreed that she's going to be one messed up girl. Her bff got suspended from school a couple months back for coming into school drunk and yelling at her teacher. Her bff asked my niece if she was still a virgin (my niece is 14 too.) my neice said sarcastically "yeah I lost my virginity 6 yrs ago." and her bff took her seriously and was asking her yeah how was it? My niece almost laughed out loud at the fact that her bff took her seriously. she told me she's never going to have her over for a sleepover again.

I feel bad for my neice that she had to deal with all this at such a young age, but I'm glad she doesn't give in to peer pressure and she has a smart head on her shoulders. I'm really proud of her and how mature she is. She told me why should I rush to do all the things I'm not supposed to. If I do all of them now I have nothing to look forward to in life. Can you imagine that coming out of a 14 yr old girl's mouth? I just love her for that. Anyways... as always I'm grateful for my family. Kind of makes me guilty for feeling lazy and not wanting to celebrate Diwali after reading someone's blog about how they feel sad cuz they're lonely on Diwali and dont have their family around to celebrate with. Happy Diwali to everyone... This light is turned off.